Saturday, November 29, 2008 @ 4:05 PM

a new blog!

Okay I have decided to make this blog a little more private and exclusive. Not that there are many readers, but I just like it less known I would say.

I have not been updating and I don't have the intention to update often. I have been very busy with school and work. Not easy juggling work and school definitely. I spent most of my days in a routine.

A standard day on a weekday would be like this:
Wakeup call at 6am
Out of the house by about 7am
Attend class from 9 to about 3 or 4.
Off to work after that
Leave Sentosa at about 9 plus
Reach home only at 12 plus.

Weekends would be spent entirely at Sentosa also:
10.30am - 9 pm

So I spent most of my life in sunny island Sentosa. Of course, I would definitely like to thank alot of people who forced me to open my eyes and realise that my daily routine was as boring as hell.
So with the help and encouragement with these dear colleagues of mine, I stopped work last week and shall resume later.

I definitely have to catch up on school. I had two tests and guess what? I didn't really study as much as I had wanted to. I was under tremendous stress I guess. And I really think stress gets really scary when its uncontrollable. I had 3 breakdowns over this whole month and I am beginning to wonder whether there is indeed something wrong with me.

I was getting quite obsessive and possesive. It is so scary you know? I can be happy and laughing with friends in the afternoon and I'll just turn into a grouchy monster in the evening. I wanted so much to find someone to talk.

This is scary. I even contemplated on suicide or running away. I was so angry with alot of people.

I fought with my best friend the past week and we are now on our separate ways.

Projects due next week and tests coming soon.

I really need to calm down and talk to someone.

Talked to Dii and my current hobby to release stress is online shopping. Not a good solution in the long run of course. But that will do.

Okay I am going off now. My eyes hurt and I look horrible with puffy eyes and pimple breakouts.

EWWWW

good day love!